As I sit here today watching Austin at the park, I can feel that fall is just around the corner. Yes it's still very warm here in the sunshine state, but it's definitely bearable. Especially here in the shade with this breeze, i could sit here all day with a book and be happy!
And I am happy, mostly. We just sent Emily a box of goodies. In it there is a lovey for her to snuggle with, a camera for the orphanage workers to hopefully take some pictures of her since we can't, a bracelet Austin made, stickers, and some toddler sized treats :-) Most importantly though is the photo album and letter.
We put a letter in there that had been translated into Chinese asking her nannies to watch over her for us until we can get to her. Until they get this package they most often do not know a child has been matched with a family. This letter serves as Emily's first notice that she is spoken for. We have loved her for months, and she is just now going to be told we exist. Well, that's the plan anyway. We are praying her nannies read her our letter, telling her about our home, our dogs and cats, her own room, but most importantly about how loved she already is. Then, we pray her nannies show her the photo album we made. Inside are pictures of all of us- her mama and baba, big brother, both aunts, and all of her grandparents.. even the dogs! Each picture is labeled in Mandarin and pinyin so the workers can read them to her.
We are praying she gets this package, sees our faces, and begins to get familiar with us. Hopefully this will ease the transition from foster family to forever family. I think the only way we will know if she gets the gift is if we have pictures on the camera we sent when we pick her up! So much is riding on this gift, this box, and it is making me ache for our Emily more so than ever today. I keep myself busy with work, Austin, fundraising, cleaning (haha no not really) but in the down time, in these quiet moments I have by myself, I truly feel like I'm missing something. And I want to sit and cry.
But, I can't. Park time is over, time to go make dinner and do the ironing (again, not really lol)...
Thank you for reading my random rambling of thoughts! Say a prayer for Emily's health and for my sanity when you have a second :-)
~ Erin XOXO